This was a bit of a last-minute session; I hadn’t planned on doing it in advance. In fact, I was going to go roller skating.
But the whole day had been stressful and tiring in an odd sort of way. I laid down and napped for a few hours. When I woke up I felt this urgency that I needed to do a session; and I’m glad I did.
Starts out largely with casual conversation between me and my spirit guides. They are friendly and supportive throughout the session. Near the end I process a bit of a memory from being strangled by my ex-husband.
My spirit guides are friendly and supportive throughout the session. This starts out recalling memories of sleeping in my bed that was actually part of a closet in my parents bedroom. After that we chat a little asking why, when I was only 5 years old, I had it in my mind that I wanted to be a playboy model and made my Barbie’s prostitutes during play time. Following that is a lot of casual chatter about random topics, reminding myself to take care of my body, and physically moving around. My guides also reassured me that I was welcome to visit anytime, which was a concern I’d had from my first session.
My spirit guides are friendly and supportive throughout the session. This starts out asking what I really want, do I want to be alone forever. A memory comes up of being assaulted by an ex-boyfriend in my car. Followed by a memory of being attacked with a knife by one of my sisters as a young child. And internalizing the feeling that my parents must not want me to be alive when they won’t keep me safe from her.
This starts out with my spirit guides revealing the meaning of visions I had in Ayahuasca ceremonies almost two decades ago. My desire for someone to kill my physical body (to end my spiritual suffering), followed by a difficult memory of nearly being killed by a man when I was just 21 years old.
Talking with my spirit guides about it being safe to sleep now. A lot of family stuff comes up in this clip, especially my mother’s lying. My guides tell me I’m storing this trauma in my low back. And the impetus for running away to live in an Ambulance. Lots of physical movement during this time, and my guides telling me to take a potty break.
Another mention of the black box (fully repressed memories) near the end when I start talking about suddenly getting sick and gaining weight as a child. Mention that some of the issues with my mother are stored in my organs.
Gratitude towards my spirit guides for this experience. Them telling me I’m supposed to forget these memories, but they were too much at the time to process them. Talking about breast implant surgery.
Starts with talking about being groomed by the ex-fiancé of one of my sister’s as a child, and his goal of having sex with every woman in our family. During this memory my top lip felt like it was on fire. Then going over being assaulted at work and threatened/stalked by security. My spirit guides inform me that they were the ones who broke my neck (literally), to get me out of the bad situation. Winding down for sleep. Brief mention that the key to the black box (fully repressed memories) is in my cheeks.
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